The Meaning Of Friends
haiz.. alwiz blog some unhappy things..Dont see me alwiz spam at public in the games or alwiz very happy around the internet.. who will know the deeper part of my heart? my real life is totally not happy at all.. thats why no matter wad i aso will on9.. not in game aso sure will on9 in msn or skype.. why... is becoz.. i really cannot feel i have any "fren" in my real life..
not i dunwan be fren with them.. all their activities i got tried to join like play badminton.. go out sing K together.. i all aso got join juz hope to be 1 of their member in their gang.. however inside their heart i'm juz a randomer..
my another fren which is same class with me have his bday party in class at the friday b4 1/5/2007. i forgot which day already.. that gang never ask me to spend some money.. share with them to clelbrate with my fren.. seriusly.. i really sad.. i juz sit beside and behide nd in front of them..however they really can treat me as a randomer..
the most funny things is.. my bday party is not them to held for me.. but is my another group of fren who i juz know them when the school flower drum song play.. i tot they will celebrate with me but they didnt.. is my another group of different class frens celebrate with me.. really sad..
now in class.. they got go sing k.. or do wadever activities they got ask whole gang.. but treat me like invisible.. i didnt ask for more.. juz.. ppl who do chat with me or who be my frens b4 aso know (in internet) i am a kind of ppl who no talk aso can die 1.. and now i'm being ignoring in class.. my real life...
that is y.. eventhought my result getting worst.. but i still wanna on9.. juz becoz i wan my frens stand beside me. i nid frens.. real life cant give me wad i wan.. or mayb.. i really not suitable for their gang..
and my result is.. i hate my class now.. i hate being lonely.. i hate.. really.. hate...
Best Regards
venus
posted by Venus Tan @ 1:10 AM
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