My Dreams

Dreams.. is what?

Ya... what is dreams.. I dont know.. When I am small.. i tot dreams is very beautiful.. very warm.. and full of our hope.. with the time is runing, pass and pass by me, I found that dreams are very scarly.. Everyday I can sense some danger.. hateness.. anger.. sadness.. around me and it do effect my dreams. Even I have sleep, however when I wake up I feel like I never rest before. Why.. The devil who always walking around me keep on disturb me.. never let me have a single moment to rest... haiz...

Finally, i solve my WMO- Boy friends problem. However.. now is my problem between me and my real life boy friend.. I dont know why I feel that the feeling he give me is fake.. I really dont know why. In the new games.. My lvl is higher than him for 2 lvl, he talk with me and said "yalo i know i am noob la, you are pro. I know." and the voice he is using is somethings like really dislike. I think, Just a game.. what for so care about the level? why so care about win and lose? Even in SDO we dance together, ya.. he is using Speed 6 and I am using speed 3. He keep on asking me to raise my speed just because of I win him in sdo by low speed. I think, why need to care about the speed? If he want he can slow down his speed didnt means to can force me to use high speed.

Inside the WMO.. he said after he come out from the hospital will marry with me.. well.. of coz he didn't. He said marry package he can get it easily.. well he didnt get it also. I not care about he got marry me or not.. I only care about his promise..If he really cannot do it.. Just tell me i dont mind.. but why.. Now somemore quit WMO and play a new games.. after i high lvl then him he come and dislike.. What I need to do? I just left both game.. and only visit blueserver forum... I dont know what else i can do.. I am sad...

Ya.. last time.. he didt "kao" many people inside the games before.. however when i ask he only said isn shinangle.. But the things i know is.. he got "kao" milk--> Baby--> para mami... and shinangle.. why.. why like this also dont want to tell me.. and because of this.. plus his attitude towars me i feel like.. the love he give me is fake.. I am being play by him... sad...really.. sad...

posted by Venus Tan @ 11:26 PM